Older today
I must be older today. I woke up older today. I had an ephipany of some sort. It was like whoa! Pump your breaks. Things are changing faster than you can control them.
You think you have things figured out and then you wake up to a new reality. I suppose things are supposed to be this way considering this is life and life is indeed unpredictable. But the funny thing is there is no answer. We've all tried our part in being involved with the world. Being an activist making a difference. We've tried to be family oriented. We've even tried love. By jeez, what is out there that sticks to you like glue. I'm beginning to think it's just experiences.
I mean everyone I know is either married by law, or married by their situation. Babies and houses, houses and more babies.
I thought at a certain point I would be vacationing with buddies, traveling with my women, or even sitting on top of the world mentally. Some how some way, I ran out of gas half way up the mountain. I'm quickly drifting down, and my forward momentum is not strong enough to move me up, or at least it seems that way. I must have took a wrong turn on "laid back street", and made that bad right turn on "it will be ok street". I didn't get the GPS.:)
It must have been when I was 25 when I realized that I had time. In reality you don't have time. Time is one thing that is ever changing, and if you think that time will work you out, you are so wrong. Life can be like a broken bone. It will heal itself, but at the same time even broken bones and pulled muscles need exercise and attention. There is a saying "If you think that time will change your ways, don't wait to long." If you wait you will be so behind the curve. It's almost equivalent to going on a diet 50 pounds to late. It just doesn't work well.
I try to be above my faults. I try to place myself on a plateau that allows me to forget what happened. It's healthy, but it also makes your reality unreal. The truth of the matter is is that you are going to get beaten up at times, and you will have rough patches, and it's ok to be how you are. It's ok to be said. It's ok to be angry with your results. The rest of the world will always be harder on you than you on yourself. Believe that. I'm very hard on myself, and I still find people that will crush my thoughts with the slightest look or word. It's not about self confidence. It's not about keeping your head up. It's about keeping things in perspective. It's about knowing the struggle and not wanting to go back there continously. The mountain may be slippery at times. Sometimes it may have moutain lions, but at the same time sometimes it will have moutain goats that will have you up the mountain. It's possible.
Where did my friends go? Where did my love go? Where did my youth go? It left when I always tried to be to mature. When I was trying to be 21 at 18 and 30 at 25. When I was trying to be big when I was small, and loud when I was really quite.
All the posing. All the living as someone that I wasn't when in reality the real me looked in the mirror every morning. Don't let the times escape you by getting caught in the middle of life. Life is like a hurricane, and it can destroy anything in it's path. If your not firmly planted you will be taken away in the hurricane.
The cool thing about life is if your still breathing and moving, you still have a fighting chance. Life is a state of mind not a physical place. Whether on lock down, or the King or Queen of a throne you can be where you want to be.
Keep yourself around supportive people. Get all negative people out of your life, and build your empire accordingly.
Yeah, I found myself older today. And I realized that I haven't even lived half of my life yet. (God Willing) Why be depressed when you can be free. Why be bitter when you can put sugar on that lemon. It's real, but it's our life. Life it to the fullest.
You think you have things figured out and then you wake up to a new reality. I suppose things are supposed to be this way considering this is life and life is indeed unpredictable. But the funny thing is there is no answer. We've all tried our part in being involved with the world. Being an activist making a difference. We've tried to be family oriented. We've even tried love. By jeez, what is out there that sticks to you like glue. I'm beginning to think it's just experiences.
I mean everyone I know is either married by law, or married by their situation. Babies and houses, houses and more babies.
I thought at a certain point I would be vacationing with buddies, traveling with my women, or even sitting on top of the world mentally. Some how some way, I ran out of gas half way up the mountain. I'm quickly drifting down, and my forward momentum is not strong enough to move me up, or at least it seems that way. I must have took a wrong turn on "laid back street", and made that bad right turn on "it will be ok street". I didn't get the GPS.:)
It must have been when I was 25 when I realized that I had time. In reality you don't have time. Time is one thing that is ever changing, and if you think that time will work you out, you are so wrong. Life can be like a broken bone. It will heal itself, but at the same time even broken bones and pulled muscles need exercise and attention. There is a saying "If you think that time will change your ways, don't wait to long." If you wait you will be so behind the curve. It's almost equivalent to going on a diet 50 pounds to late. It just doesn't work well.
I try to be above my faults. I try to place myself on a plateau that allows me to forget what happened. It's healthy, but it also makes your reality unreal. The truth of the matter is is that you are going to get beaten up at times, and you will have rough patches, and it's ok to be how you are. It's ok to be said. It's ok to be angry with your results. The rest of the world will always be harder on you than you on yourself. Believe that. I'm very hard on myself, and I still find people that will crush my thoughts with the slightest look or word. It's not about self confidence. It's not about keeping your head up. It's about keeping things in perspective. It's about knowing the struggle and not wanting to go back there continously. The mountain may be slippery at times. Sometimes it may have moutain lions, but at the same time sometimes it will have moutain goats that will have you up the mountain. It's possible.
Where did my friends go? Where did my love go? Where did my youth go? It left when I always tried to be to mature. When I was trying to be 21 at 18 and 30 at 25. When I was trying to be big when I was small, and loud when I was really quite.
All the posing. All the living as someone that I wasn't when in reality the real me looked in the mirror every morning. Don't let the times escape you by getting caught in the middle of life. Life is like a hurricane, and it can destroy anything in it's path. If your not firmly planted you will be taken away in the hurricane.
The cool thing about life is if your still breathing and moving, you still have a fighting chance. Life is a state of mind not a physical place. Whether on lock down, or the King or Queen of a throne you can be where you want to be.
Keep yourself around supportive people. Get all negative people out of your life, and build your empire accordingly.
Yeah, I found myself older today. And I realized that I haven't even lived half of my life yet. (God Willing) Why be depressed when you can be free. Why be bitter when you can put sugar on that lemon. It's real, but it's our life. Life it to the fullest.
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