Where am I

When I think of you my heart aches. I wonder why our roads can't meet. When two people want to come together I don't think it's just the want that's going to keep them together. I believe in something more. Something that will have nothing to do with their wants respectively. I want you. It seems as if we may be to magnets. Repelling? I notice the little things, I look over the major things and I ask myself can we be? See, the little things happen often and the major things happen rarely. Can I handle that?

Most people say they can handle anything. I laugh when I hear that considering most people can't sustain any type of relationship now a days. If you could handle anything you could handle the adversity of building and sustaining a relationship. Whether it be romantic, business or friendship. Anything really does mean anything. I challenge the ones that say they are strong.

When I think of you my heart beats faster. Sometimes I feel that I mentally rush this relationship to see if there is a end result. To see if it's possible to be happy down the line. If I could, would I jump out of it now if I know it wouldn't last, or would I try to fix the things that would lead to our demise? That's a good question to ask.

I really try to "be" without forcing the being of our existance together, but earlier foul ups and early succeess in certain situatioins drive me to be how I am. I guess I am being, but in what? I want to connect to that left part of your brain that craves creativity and passion. But it seems like the only way to do that is to just
leave and come back as someone else physically. Hmm, would that work?

When I think of you I crave the best of you. I crave so much of you that I forget whats on my plate. Is it that right? I have to balance it all or my wants and needs could foul up a situation in our relationship. I wonder what I can do?

To be continued.