Tuesday, September 20, 2005

Only you

Everyday I live for you. I consider things only because of you. I wake up and I open my eyes to you. You are the strength that empowers me. Without you I would probably be half the man I am, but I would think I was the man.

I try to do right by you, but sometimes it's so hard. Your pure and innocent. Your strong and stable. When I think about you I realize that I am not where I want to be. I realize that I am only what you make me to be. Your ways are black and white. Your struggles can't be prepared to anything that I will ever go through.

I can't stress enough all of the positive things you've brought in my life. You made it possible for me to live. You made me realize that all things are possible. That there is no such thing as can't.

Thank you for your support. Thank you for your words of wisdom. I'm forever in debt to you and I will try my best to serve you for as long as I live. I will try my best to help others. I will be less selfish. I will give all I have to help others succeed that are not as fortunate as me.

Through you I will take care of my family and be the strong link. I am growing everyday, and only through you will I continue to do so.

You turned this boy into a man and for that I am forever in debt to you..............


-One

Monday, September 19, 2005

A beautiful thing

It's a beautiful thing when a plan comes together.
It's a beautiful thing when your at peace with yourself.
It's a beautiful thing when your enemies can't figure you out.
It's a beautiful thing when your heart is aligned with someone else's.
It's a beautiful thing when your able to look your mate in the eyes all the time.
It's a beautiful thing when your family is strong and healthy.
It's a beautiful thing when you can see through the hard times.
It's a beautiful thing to find love and keep it.
It's a beautiful thing when your friends respect your words.
It's a beautiful thing when the one you want, wants you back.
It's a beautiful thing when your not scared to speak your mind.
It's a beautiful thing when you have a lot in common with the people in your life.
It's a beautiful thing when your able to help people.
It's a beautiful thing when your body meshes perfectly with your mates.
It's a beautiful thing when your in a seamless situation with the people in your life.
It's a beautiful thing to not have any regrets, and only think about your past in a positive way.
It's a beautiful thing to not have any excess baggage.
It's a beautiful thing to be able.
It's a beautiful thing to look forward to something that's priceless (life).
It's a beautiful thing to realize that you have made this far.
It's a beautiful thing to look at your self in the mirror and think that your beautiful.
It's a beautiful thing to connect with someone without mentioning that you even connected.
It's a beautiful thing to sit in silence with someone and not have to talk all the time.
It's a beautiful thing to write freely.
It's a beautiful thing to think freely.
It's a beautiful thing to choose what you want.

It's a beautiful thing..... So beautiful!

Saturday, September 17, 2005

Big Girl

Fully grown with your hormones now. Got your own home and you alone wanna bone, wanna moan, get your back blown out. No more daddies little girl. You a big girl now, in a world, where these niggas are foul, you could be aborting the next Michael Jordan if your man don't wanna be around. Your sexy, you got it, you ride it. Every night wanna be inside it. No more daddies little girl.
I need her, I'll eat her. Do anything to please her. My ghetto queen.
I'm the type that'll get you by the fireplace. Get you hype when I lick it, put it in your face. Sipping red wine, is it bedtime? You can kick it with your nigga while we listen to Maxwell. I'm feeling richer today, can hit it then stay. Lingerie, make me take it to the kitchen and play. We got champagne, whipped cream, I'ma grab a bucket of ice. Bubble bath running, and the candlelight feeling so right. It's your night, no stress, no fight. Mad at your ex, cause his dough tight. Things never go right when you're with him, try your best to forget him. It's easy to please me. Call for the LORD right when you cum, I'm biting your tongue. Make your legs cramp up, you can't stand up. I'ma pull my pants up. We can discuss a weekend of lust on top of the trust, tell me what's the reason for us to love or to fuck. I'm that nigga that you want. If it's gangster we can't front. If you want me I can stay around if you need me, I'm here for you. How that sound? Now it's up to you. Depending on how you wanna get down cause you're a big girl now. Got your name and your number in my cell phone. Hear your voice and I wonder where you are, if you all alone if you in a good mood, if you not, or are you thinking about when you was at my spot. What we did when we got hot. Is you dreaming you had me? Is you creaming your panties?
Like a king, you fed me grapes, and you fanned me on the couch, to the floor, to the bed, to the sink, and we ate each other like candy. Under the covers, two intimate lovers you fuck a nigga like you mad at me. Throw the ass to me. You should be glad to be in the presence of a real nigga as bad as me, while I'm in the grind with my coherts make the mighty dollar for us.

You talking to your friends that I'm the best guy for you, how I'm making my presence known, how I make you say "Oh God"! I gotta dodge all the blowjobs, it's getting hard cause you know how these girls are wearing tight shit, no panties, no bra running up to me with menagez trois suggestions. But I'm starting to get an erection guessing, what you thinking about. Because you are the one I want and know other can compare to you.

Nice complexion, fondle me, thinking it's time to leave? I need you. Time to breathe wanna follow with me, ironically you pop up. You make me feel like that happiest man on this earth today.
So I rescue you, only thing left to do was to grab you, so you can embrace me.
Embrace me........... I'll be here! Your a big girl though. You are able to make all your own decisions. The most dangerous thing on this earth.

-One

Friday, September 16, 2005

Consistency

Consistency is something that most people have either by way of a good habit or bad habit. Consistency is one way to gauge a person. I look for consistency in friends and family. I also look for it in working relationships. Consistency is something that people notice when it isn't there any more. We take a persons consistency for granted.

If someone is constantly an asshole and then they switch to being an angel we get thrown off a bit. We don't know how to take it. We get complacent in the way that person is treating us. We even have the nerve to get angry at the person for switching up there style. I like positive consistency, and I even like bad consistency developing into positive or great behavior consistency.

Some people say that some one they know is an asshole, but at least he's consistent. That's true. I love that statement.

Personally, I think consistency is great, but some of us really do have bad habits that make for negative impact.

Consistency is something that builds great relationships. Consistency is something that also can break a great relationship.

I think to build a great business, friendship, or marriage you need consistency. Spontaneity is great in relationships, but the back bone of all is consistency. You want to apply stableness in your life.

Wednesday, September 14, 2005

In your Corner

What is the definition of someone being in your corner? I would say for that person to be there for you no matter what you do, or what you say. Your highs and lows. When you need space, when you make bad decisions. When you have a bad month, or even a bad few months. True friends don't leave you when you don't work for them. They just don't. You can drag them through the worst experience, and they will still stay around. It's amazing. There is nothing to bad. Of course bad things will be said, and the temptation will make you want to leave no matter what, but you don't leave. Maybe you see the greater good in the person. Time brings people closer together, as well as in some situations further apart.

I've been in few peoples corner in my life, and I can say that it's rough. I can say that true love never fades. If you really want someone you don't leave them when they have bad things going on in there life. You don't leave them when they're tripping. True friends are tested when the tough times are unbearable. When you could scream, but that person is still there and your like what are you doing here, are you crazy? You appreciate it later, but in the middle of it all your so focused on you. You don't even see that good people and good relationships are hard to find. We are selfish people by nature. Someone extremely selfish, and others less selfish.

I want you to be in my corner. I want you to see the greater good in me. Be there for me when I make bad decisions. When I make ok decisions. Just be there for me. It won't go unnoticed. I know I'm hard to deal with at times, but I mean well............. For real. I'll be there in your corner.

Patience

I used to hope that my kisses could rectify. Rectify your heart and soul. Escape the emptiness inside of you, and bring our souls together. How could I get close to you. How could I find your soul?
How can I let you go, why should I let you go? I want to work for your attention. I want to earn your trust through doing not just saying.

Let's fall deep in us. Let's not fight or fuss. Let's pull each other up if the other is lagging behind.

I'm drowning in your thoughts. My soul speaks only of your love. I'm focusing on you, can you focus on me? I will wait for you. I will wait for it. Why not?

Let's fall deep in us. Let me embrace your body with warm arms and an open heart.

I want to become that friend that you never had. I want to understand things that you didn't think a man could understand. I want to cross that divided line between men and women.

Fall deep into me. Fall for me like you were jumping off a cliff. I will catch you. I will protect you.

This ain't for the easy. This is for the one that knows what it takes to make the impossible possible.

Let's make this fairy tale poem come true. We don't have to live through words. We can live through actions.

I will be patiently waiting. Your worth every minute, every second.

I will believe in your words, and let timing decide our future.

Monday, September 12, 2005

Eye Contact

Eye contact the true definition of trust without words. We look into each others eyes full of deceit. We try to make a guilty situation honest, but our eyes won't let us lie. The contact I get from others is disarming. Once I figure that someone is not shooting straight with me, I usually get very upset. Not upset because there lying but upset because there is nothing that I can do. People don't realize there body language. People don't realize that most of there movements are more telling then the words that comes out of their mouth.

As I look into your eyes I see pain and frustration. I see troubles, and distance. You want to connect with my eyes, but your preconceived notion subjects you to deceit me. You wanna tell me the truth but your past haunts you. Your eyes are truly the windows of your past. When I catch a glimpse of your eyes I get butterflies. I want to pull the truth out. I want to gather the goods from you. I want to bring the truth to the forefront of this relationship. I know it's hard to catch eye contact when your mind is not aligned with someone. I know you would rather look away instead of looking into my brown eyes. My eyes are serious. My eyes are bright and they have hope. I see your eyes moving from side to side. I see the constant blinking. The looking away when I ask you a question. I see what makes you uncomfortable. I see what brings your mood down. Questions. Nothing but questions. Your eye contact gets my heart in trouble.
The more I look into your eyes the more I realize that you don't want this. You don't want what is available. You don't want what is at your finger tips. Rightfully so. It's your life.

The eye contact gives all of that away. Your pretty eyes are telling like the gray clouds in the sky. Like the high seas in the Atlantic. I wonder why I notice, but I don't take action. I wonder why my eyes don't run away from you, and choose to look into another's eyes? What? Would that be ideal? Eyes tell it all. Blinking tells it all. Starring tells it all. I often try to lock with you, but I notice you like neck exercising. You often look down, and when I look into your eyes, and when I look down you look up. Why put our eyes through these moments. Why have our hearts witness these lies. When you ask, people say I didn't lie to you. I've never lied to you. Yeah, verbally? Your eyes lied, and my eyes never miss an opportunity to see that.

Eye contact..... The most telling... Eye contact, the most disruptive resource you can use.

Precious

Life in itself is a beautiful thing. I started appreciating life more the day I fell in love with it. I woke up one morning and realized that life was amazingly beautiful. It was real, it was exciting, and it was never the same. No matter how mundane, no matter how boring. Life was real. I started to analyze the thoughts of others. The moves of others. I realized that most took things for granted. Mostly the ability to choose. The ability to choose your path in life. Most people woke up with the attitude of tomorrow, and not the attitude of today. Most would mess up and look for the second chance to come around. We have to stop taking time for granted. We are not promised the next time. We can't control everything that comes into our lives. Even though it seems like we have the power, we actually don't. God is watching. He gives you the power, to make decisions on your own, but with him only in mind can you make the right choices.

Life is precious. So precious that I wouldn't forfeit it for no one. I wouldn't change the opportunity of life for a billion dollars. There is no dollar amount precious enough. The precious things in life are definitely unexplainable. You can't explain beauty. You can't explain intelligence. You can't explain a miracle by way of God. I'm happy to be alive in this world. I'm happy to realize that life can be gone with the snap of a finger. People have life at there finger tips everyday, and they choose to make decisions out of selfishness instead of out of spiritualness. We kill others with guns and knives. We mentally abuse people until stress kills them. We think that our mistakes can be covered up with time. They can't.

I realized how precious life was when I lost more time dwelling on the future, and regretting some things in my past. I don't want to be a bitter man as I get older. I want to be free and concentrate on the beautiful things in life. You have to learn to let go. Tomorrow may never come. How do you want to be remembered? How do you want your wishes to go?

Life is precious, and I'm glad I live it. Life is precious and I'm glad that I am able produce it.

Wednesday, September 07, 2005

Middle

Have you ever felt in the middle? Not to left, not to right, just right in the middle. Things are going on and you can't make heads or tails of it. Your just in the center. Being in the center is wired because it means you don't have things together. You don't feel strong about anything. The situation tends to handle you more than your handling the situation.
You try to sort things out, but it seems as if your not in control of it. You wonder to yourself how did you get there. How did you get into such a situation? It's really quite simple. Situations are easy to get into. Getting out of them, or maintaining them is the difficult part.

It's hard to maintain a situation when your confused about it though. That's actually really difficult. They say time is the easiest way through something. Time is painful. Time is like your worst enemy, and at the same time your best teammate. I'm impatient. I want to wait, but it's hard to. I like to know what's up now, and not later.

I know from past experiences that you should take it slow, very slow. Time will tell all. When your in the middle, take it slow. Take it real slow. Don't rush the uncertainty. You will naturally gravitate to one side. In the middle is not so bad. At least you still have a chance to make the right decision.

Thursday, September 01, 2005

Life

Could it be that I've finally hit a major road block. For once I'm not able to get around this obstacle. It's so big that I'm going to have to attack it straight up. I always try the short cut, or I always take the short cut. This time taking the short cut, could possibly short someone else. That's scary. Really scary. You never know for sure if your ready for something until you actually go through it. I wonder if I'll be ready.I wonder if there is a need to be ready?

I'll take this situation on with an open mind, and I will be as positive as I can be. I will share all that I can, and learn all I can about this situation. Hopefully this situation won't defeat me, or get me down. Every situation is an opportunity. Hopefully this opportunity will turn good, and not disastrous.

To be continued........