Yesterday

Why do we get so caught up with yesterday. It's amazing how we let something that can't change effect the majority of our lives and the way we treat others.
Your dating someone and you let the persons past effect your future together. You wonder about the person they used to date. The things they used to do. All things that don't matter anymore. Most things are out of your control anyway so it's a waste to get all bunched up in it.

Is it really necessary? I find myself damaging my relationship because of my predjudices. Is it the man in me that wants to be the first? The first to spoil, the first to take her here, and the first to take her there. That's so selfish. Why do I care if my girl has been to the finest places, recieved the finest gifts? Why do I care if she has came five times in a row with one guy before me? She's with me now right?! Well it seems as if so. As humans we are reflective creatures. What's sets us apart from other animals is the ability to lie. All animals love and care. All others decide what to do and what not to do, but animals can't lie. So am I concerned with the fact that she can lie about her past experiences? Wishing
she was there instead of being here with me. That's crazy and controlling. Sometimes I wish I didn't have a memory. I wish I could forget it all. I wish I could love like a dog, or even a two year old. Continuously loving without predjudice. I guess I can, I guess we can!

We gotta take action. We have to make it out of the ditch we're in. Love doesn't evolve on it's own. It takes effort. Getting caught up in yesterday is something that has hindered my adult life. Wow! I admitted a fault. The past is what has prevented me from being rich. From being larger than life. If I was the chosen one before I past the opportunity because of yesterday.

No more. I'm going to jump off that cliff. I'm going to make that comment, make that joke, or even say I love you. I'm going to do what I want to do. I'm not going to destroy my life because of yesterday. Although it's very tempting to do the obvious I will do my best. I appreciate the knowledge that I have recieved over the years. Yesterday is yesterday. Today is now, and tomorrow is.......

My yesterday may have hindered yesterday but I promise my yesterday will not hinder my today. No more!

Will you yesterday push others a way or will your yesterday be a positive catylst for today? It can be. God wants it that way.

Where does my soul go when my ditch is dug? One never knows! You can't worry about tomorrow, and you definitely can't worry about yesterday. Work on what you can do not what you can't do!